Every day getting better

 I am getting better with everyday

I am sitting here listening to trance, now one thing the injection does is cause like what I can only describe as being a heart drop, followed by a brain freeze and these can last for ages.

The brain freezes are what I confuse as hunger or boredom, they are neither, they are a pain. The brain freezes are a state of confusion which seem to go away after exercise and energy drinks. They really are a pain and not nice to be living with.

The injection that I am on alters hormones and things and causes solid testicles, which in turn cause a brain freeze because my testicles are not free to move in this state it causes pain too and breathing problems and these are awfully hard to get motivated to get on the push bike and go for a spin.

Basically, I have not been out on the push bike much and the injection I am on is overly sedative and causing me problems. I have been on the push bike but nowhere near as much as I wanted to be, my testosterone is just not there to get me motivated and moving like it should be. But these are junkie conversations and not that of a normal human being, mostly because I know I am being sedated and made to feel like shit.

My neck is not right either, these drugs I am on are like heroin without the effects, so nasty.